No big surprise

I entered the fourth week of the push up program, and I am slowly starting to doubt whetever I am doing the push ups properly. I might have to redo the fourth week, maybe even the third...it's up to test come saturday.

I wonder if I continue any of this once my work stars for good, which is next monday, I might get lazy as usual. I have mostly forgotten about the pull ups, I do them now and then but haven't achieved any great progress so far. The sit ups are long gone, haven't done a single one in at least a week. Luckily the push ups and the occasional pull ups do train the abs a bit. Not much, but a bit. And given that I am naturally skinny(not a skeleton, just skinny) I get great abs without doing almost nothing at all.

However, when it comes to jogging there I have been persistent. I've increased the lenght from 3,5 kilometers to 4,5 kilometers. Also increased the speed. My breathing is now excellent, as I found the perfect, or near perfect, style for my running and now my progress is only tied to my leg muscles which are gradually improving.

I also noticed that when I am running and I start to ponder my life, and when I get that depression or frustration or anger...or maybe combination of all those, I speed up my running. Funnily enough, I only discovered this last week, should concentrate on the running more...luckily I no longer do that and I am now in perfect control of my running.

Also, might move to Ireland come next January, I'll see about that.

Been a few days

I've been trying to get a job for a few days now. Must have sent close to 10 applications, maybe 15, I don't even know. Fuckers don't take me anywhere because I have no preivous experience on pretty much anything but factory work. Funnily enough today I was about to call a place I had worked previously, but decided to check the web page of the 'unemployment office' or whatever, and they had just today listed an open place there. So sent an email there, they called and now I have a job. It pisses me off a bit though, it's not like I want to work in a factory for the rest of my life, but how am I supposed to switch the field when everything requires experience?
Well, education would be one thing, but that would mean a minimum of 3 extra years in Finland. No fucking way.

Well, excersising then, I've been running a lot. Just completed day 2 of the 3rd week of the push up program. Sit ups I have pretty much forgotten about. Pull ups I've been done pretty much everyday.

Anyways, the day before yesterday I was suppose to hold a day off from running, but then something made me feel very angry, frustrated and what not, and I decided to go running. Shouldn't have, broke my leg. It wasn't muscle pain either, felt like my joints were on fire. So I had to walk most of the 'jog'...it hurt a bit still yesterday, but I'm gonna try and have a little jog today.

Slowing down a bit

Only did the normal 3,5 km jog and 20 sit upts yesterday, I figure my strenght is running out...so I need to reconsider my training a bit. Oh, and I did 3x4 pull ups.

Or then I am just feeling a bit lazy...which is actually the more likely scenario. So, not gonna do a jog today, instead I did the day 1 of week 3 of the push up program. Almost didn't make it, so I figure doing this program in 3 weeks will be impossible...for me at least. I reckon I'll move to the normal rhythm.

Bastards didn't call about job either. originally they told me they will call on thursday or friday if I get it, and no call...they should have at least called that I'm not gonna get it. But people never do that. That's fine, I'll just get another one then.

A day late

I was sitting at home yesterday, just about to turn off the computer and go for a jog when I received a text-message from my friend. He enquired whetever or not I would go for a beer. After much deliberation, which lasted for some 5 seconds, I decided to go for a few. And then I had a few more.

Thus, no excersising yesterday.

Anyways, when I woke up today I was a bit depressed. I dunno if depressed is the right word really, more like a mix of anger, disappointment and emptiness. So apparently even drinking doesn't help anymore with my hatred of Finland.

Didn't do anything but a jog today, which actually went pretty well and made me feel a bit better. Push ups and such need to wait for tomorrow.

Job interview, wtf

So I decided to walk/jog to the place where my job interview was. It was about 5km's there, and I got there in about 45 minutes. The weather of course was normal finnish summer weather; in other words rain. I do hate rain.

Anyways, the people there had decided that instead of a job interview they just bunched all the applicants together and show the factory. There were 6 people there, and to my undrestanding 4 openings. I knew from the beginning that I should kiss some ass to make sure I got the place...but the problem is that I don't do that. Funnily enough, there was some older woman there who obviously knew the same, and was laughing at their jokes and talking all the time. I exchanged a few words, and the rest didn't even say that. I hate 'interviews' like that, they just showed us the places...as if I've never before seen a factory.

Well, once I got out of there the rain had stopped, so I decided to jog back home. Didn't quite make it, depsite having full days rest yesterday, as I had to walk a few times. Problems with breathing this time, must still be all that tobacco I used to smoke. And the flu. And my allergy. Took me about 35 minutes to get back.

I still need to do the push ups later today. Plus, some sit ups wouldn't hurt.


EDIT:
Okay...I did the push up test. And I got 40. No good at all. Didn't do any sit ups.
I guess I should really have a few days of rest before continuing.

I am empty

I woke up and felt pretty good. No pains, but I hope I've made some gains. Sure, it's been a week since I started training so I don't expect much...but it's still longer than my usual enthusiasm for excersising lasts. Now I'm feeling pretty good and confident that I will continue the program.

But then again, Finland has a way of bringing you down. Earlier today, when I just finished watching a film and was getting ready for a jog, a friend called me. He asked me for a coffee and I said why not. So we went for a coffee, and as we drank our coffee which didn't really taste all that good, we talked about things. Mainly how Finland sucks, and how we need to get the fuck out of here. And as usual I couldn't see people anywhere. Well, in the shops sure, and driving around in their shitty cars, but otherwise there were just endless streches of empty roads running through the numerous forests...the forests are god damn everywhere.

Empty is a good word, since that is how I feel. No hate, no pain, no joy, no nothing. I feel like I left something in Nice when I returned from there week ago. And with something, I mean everything. This place feels like nothing, I am just waiting that I can get out of here again, and hopefully one day I can get out of here for good.

Anyways, when we were heading back it started raining and we ended up renting a film and watching it. After that clock was about 8:30 pm, and I no longer felt like taking a jog...I felt like doing nothing really. Then I started thinking about things again, and got pissed off a bit and decided to complete the 2nd week of the 100 push ups program. Finished with a total of 74. Tomorrow I need to test how many consecutive push ups I can do, I think it'll be somewhere around 60.

Got a job interview tomorrow aswell. Not really interested in that at all, but gotta get money from somewhere. The fuckers said the job will last until september, which in a way would be good since it would be enough time to earn some money so I can get out of here for a week.

My friend ended his summer vacation yesterday, today he said he's gonna go to the doctor and say he's depressed and needs a vacation. Sounds like a plan.

Another day, another jog

My ankles hurt a bit still, but I decided to try and run the pain away. First couple of dozen meters were somewhat painful but it went away then, and I had the normal 3,5 km jog. Had no other problems running.

Anyways, on top of that I did 3 sets of 4 pull ups and 2 sets of 20 sit ups. I am still for some reason struggling with sit ups. I don't know why, I mean I can do 3 or 4 sets easily, I just don't do them for some reason. I'll see if I can still do one set before going to bed.

Also did the 2nd day of week 2 of the push up program. The last set was pretty hard, but I still managed to push a little extra there for a total of 71 push ups.

Tomorrow I would need to do a set of 15-15-12-12-15+, with 2 minutes of rest between each level, and that would be the final training day of week 2. Then I need to do another test to see how many consecutive push ups I can do. I am betting somewhere between 50 and 60. Anyways, I reckon I won't do any pull ups for tomorrow.