Wednesday, August 13, 2008

No big surprise

I entered the fourth week of the push up program, and I am slowly starting to doubt whetever I am doing the push ups properly. I might have to redo the fourth week, maybe even the's up to test come saturday.

I wonder if I continue any of this once my work stars for good, which is next monday, I might get lazy as usual. I have mostly forgotten about the pull ups, I do them now and then but haven't achieved any great progress so far. The sit ups are long gone, haven't done a single one in at least a week. Luckily the push ups and the occasional pull ups do train the abs a bit. Not much, but a bit. And given that I am naturally skinny(not a skeleton, just skinny) I get great abs without doing almost nothing at all.

However, when it comes to jogging there I have been persistent. I've increased the lenght from 3,5 kilometers to 4,5 kilometers. Also increased the speed. My breathing is now excellent, as I found the perfect, or near perfect, style for my running and now my progress is only tied to my leg muscles which are gradually improving.

I also noticed that when I am running and I start to ponder my life, and when I get that depression or frustration or anger...or maybe combination of all those, I speed up my running. Funnily enough, I only discovered this last week, should concentrate on the running more...luckily I no longer do that and I am now in perfect control of my running.

Also, might move to Ireland come next January, I'll see about that.

Wednesday, July 30, 2008

Been a few days

I've been trying to get a job for a few days now. Must have sent close to 10 applications, maybe 15, I don't even know. Fuckers don't take me anywhere because I have no preivous experience on pretty much anything but factory work. Funnily enough today I was about to call a place I had worked previously, but decided to check the web page of the 'unemployment office' or whatever, and they had just today listed an open place there. So sent an email there, they called and now I have a job. It pisses me off a bit though, it's not like I want to work in a factory for the rest of my life, but how am I supposed to switch the field when everything requires experience?
Well, education would be one thing, but that would mean a minimum of 3 extra years in Finland. No fucking way.

Well, excersising then, I've been running a lot. Just completed day 2 of the 3rd week of the push up program. Sit ups I have pretty much forgotten about. Pull ups I've been done pretty much everyday.

Anyways, the day before yesterday I was suppose to hold a day off from running, but then something made me feel very angry, frustrated and what not, and I decided to go running. Shouldn't have, broke my leg. It wasn't muscle pain either, felt like my joints were on fire. So I had to walk most of the 'jog' hurt a bit still yesterday, but I'm gonna try and have a little jog today.

Saturday, July 26, 2008

Slowing down a bit

Only did the normal 3,5 km jog and 20 sit upts yesterday, I figure my strenght is running I need to reconsider my training a bit. Oh, and I did 3x4 pull ups.

Or then I am just feeling a bit lazy...which is actually the more likely scenario. So, not gonna do a jog today, instead I did the day 1 of week 3 of the push up program. Almost didn't make it, so I figure doing this program in 3 weeks will be impossible...for me at least. I reckon I'll move to the normal rhythm.

Bastards didn't call about job either. originally they told me they will call on thursday or friday if I get it, and no call...they should have at least called that I'm not gonna get it. But people never do that. That's fine, I'll just get another one then.

Thursday, July 24, 2008

A day late

I was sitting at home yesterday, just about to turn off the computer and go for a jog when I received a text-message from my friend. He enquired whetever or not I would go for a beer. After much deliberation, which lasted for some 5 seconds, I decided to go for a few. And then I had a few more.

Thus, no excersising yesterday.

Anyways, when I woke up today I was a bit depressed. I dunno if depressed is the right word really, more like a mix of anger, disappointment and emptiness. So apparently even drinking doesn't help anymore with my hatred of Finland.

Didn't do anything but a jog today, which actually went pretty well and made me feel a bit better. Push ups and such need to wait for tomorrow.

Tuesday, July 22, 2008

Job interview, wtf

So I decided to walk/jog to the place where my job interview was. It was about 5km's there, and I got there in about 45 minutes. The weather of course was normal finnish summer weather; in other words rain. I do hate rain.

Anyways, the people there had decided that instead of a job interview they just bunched all the applicants together and show the factory. There were 6 people there, and to my undrestanding 4 openings. I knew from the beginning that I should kiss some ass to make sure I got the place...but the problem is that I don't do that. Funnily enough, there was some older woman there who obviously knew the same, and was laughing at their jokes and talking all the time. I exchanged a few words, and the rest didn't even say that. I hate 'interviews' like that, they just showed us the if I've never before seen a factory.

Well, once I got out of there the rain had stopped, so I decided to jog back home. Didn't quite make it, depsite having full days rest yesterday, as I had to walk a few times. Problems with breathing this time, must still be all that tobacco I used to smoke. And the flu. And my allergy. Took me about 35 minutes to get back.

I still need to do the push ups later today. Plus, some sit ups wouldn't hurt.

Okay...I did the push up test. And I got 40. No good at all. Didn't do any sit ups.
I guess I should really have a few days of rest before continuing.

Monday, July 21, 2008

I am empty

I woke up and felt pretty good. No pains, but I hope I've made some gains. Sure, it's been a week since I started training so I don't expect much...but it's still longer than my usual enthusiasm for excersising lasts. Now I'm feeling pretty good and confident that I will continue the program.

But then again, Finland has a way of bringing you down. Earlier today, when I just finished watching a film and was getting ready for a jog, a friend called me. He asked me for a coffee and I said why not. So we went for a coffee, and as we drank our coffee which didn't really taste all that good, we talked about things. Mainly how Finland sucks, and how we need to get the fuck out of here. And as usual I couldn't see people anywhere. Well, in the shops sure, and driving around in their shitty cars, but otherwise there were just endless streches of empty roads running through the numerous forests...the forests are god damn everywhere.

Empty is a good word, since that is how I feel. No hate, no pain, no joy, no nothing. I feel like I left something in Nice when I returned from there week ago. And with something, I mean everything. This place feels like nothing, I am just waiting that I can get out of here again, and hopefully one day I can get out of here for good.

Anyways, when we were heading back it started raining and we ended up renting a film and watching it. After that clock was about 8:30 pm, and I no longer felt like taking a jog...I felt like doing nothing really. Then I started thinking about things again, and got pissed off a bit and decided to complete the 2nd week of the 100 push ups program. Finished with a total of 74. Tomorrow I need to test how many consecutive push ups I can do, I think it'll be somewhere around 60.

Got a job interview tomorrow aswell. Not really interested in that at all, but gotta get money from somewhere. The fuckers said the job will last until september, which in a way would be good since it would be enough time to earn some money so I can get out of here for a week.

My friend ended his summer vacation yesterday, today he said he's gonna go to the doctor and say he's depressed and needs a vacation. Sounds like a plan.

Sunday, July 20, 2008

Another day, another jog

My ankles hurt a bit still, but I decided to try and run the pain away. First couple of dozen meters were somewhat painful but it went away then, and I had the normal 3,5 km jog. Had no other problems running.

Anyways, on top of that I did 3 sets of 4 pull ups and 2 sets of 20 sit ups. I am still for some reason struggling with sit ups. I don't know why, I mean I can do 3 or 4 sets easily, I just don't do them for some reason. I'll see if I can still do one set before going to bed.

Also did the 2nd day of week 2 of the push up program. The last set was pretty hard, but I still managed to push a little extra there for a total of 71 push ups.

Tomorrow I would need to do a set of 15-15-12-12-15+, with 2 minutes of rest between each level, and that would be the final training day of week 2. Then I need to do another test to see how many consecutive push ups I can do. I am betting somewhere between 50 and 60. Anyways, I reckon I won't do any pull ups for tomorrow.

Saturday, July 19, 2008

Some more work, perhaps?

You work all night, and you work all day. Sometimes you get a few hours of sleep, maybe a decent meal. But then you're back to work. You do this from day to day, from week to week and from year to year. Sometimes you might get a day off, sometimes a week off. Perhaps you'll go to a far away place, where you will live like a king for a week. Perhaps the people there do the same.

But this is not enough, they want more, they need more. And you and the millions like you are the only ones to satisfy their needs. Still, it is for your own best, for without them the system would not work, and you would have nothing.

So you do your work, you go home and watch your tv. You feed your kids and say them goodnight, then might read a book. Maybe a magasine of how to increase the feng shui in your apartment. Then you fall asleep only to wake up for another day of hard work. And they promise one day you don't have to work. They all promise that.

And they take some of your money, they say someone else needs it more. And you say you rather don't give them any, but you have no choice. And they say that maybe some day it could be you who needs such help. And they know better, they use their words to impress you and they use your guilt to silence you. Afterall, someone has to work, why not you?

And then, for once in your average life, you fall sick. That's what the system is for, no? But if it's not flu, or if you forget to fill in a paper, you forget to contact someone, then they will not approve. They say your cheating, they say they can't help you, even if they wanted to. And you have to cope with it. So that's what you do, you cope with it. Why? Because there's no other choice. You pay the debts you have yourself financed. And they hope you have better luck next time. They say that this one incident, it's just one incident. Otherwise the system works great.

Of course, they themselfes don't use the system, they don't need to; they are rich. Only the poor need to work, the system is designed to keep the rich floating and the poor struggling. But as well all know, no one has ever got rich by working.

Ankle hurts

Yeah, well woke up and felt like going for a jog. However streched my legs a bit, and the ankle again said 'no'. So instead I did the 1st day of the 2nd week of the push up program. While it was only 60 push ups in total, I had some difficulties. Maybe it's because of the pull ups...however, I did do the push ups still, and should be able to complete week 2 in a few days.

Anyways, it's weekend and there's absolutely nothing to do. Don't even feel like hanging out with friends. Not to mention that there isn't much I could even do with my friends.
Go to the beach? What beach?
Go for a beer? Why, to drink myself sensless...because god knows that's what's gonna happen.
Go for a coffee? Where? Don't feel like sitting in some gas station 'restaurant' drinking coffee.

Perhaps I'll take a walk later on and see if the legs can take that.

Did the normal 3x4 pull ups, was a bit hard. I think I'll hold a pause on them tomorrow.

Anyways, our fantastic Prime Minister mr. Matti Vanhanen is on the roll again. Today he announced that the working time should increase instead of decreasing(some poll recently showed that finns rather take more holidays than extra pay). So now the man wants that to increase the workhours. Fine. I would agree, if it would mean something else than more taxes.

I mean working isn't really beneficial when the government takes half of your hard earned money. And what does it use them on? Fuck if I know, not on me for sure.

Friday, July 18, 2008

Running again

Well, today I got a call from...a job rental firm, or whatever it is in english. They suggested me a job and I agreed. The place where I am supposed to work is nearby, so instead of doing my 'normal' route I decided to run there and back. 10 kilometres in total, quite an increase to the 3,5km's I've run for a few times now. As far as I recall, one is not supposed to increase the distance by more than 10% per week.

Anyways, I got there allright but then my ankle decided it had had enough and started acting up. I had to walk a hundred or so meters, then run a couple hundred and then walk again, took me 1h 20min to do the whole thing, shouldn't have taken more than an hour.

What again made me miserable of the fact that I live in Finland, was that there was pretty much no one out there. I mean, I saw maybe two guys rollerskating a few teenagers and a couple random people. And a shitload of people in their cars going one way or another. Why don't people spend time out anymore? I can't even remember when was the last time I saw a girl jog somewhere in this city/town. Makes me quite depressed really.

Anyways, before I went for a jog I did 3x4 pull ups, and the same after I came from the jog. I held a pause form the push ups, but did 3 sets of 20 sit ups.

I also glanced a few few pages of basics of french language...just something to use my spare time on, I guess.

Thursday, July 17, 2008


So a few days ago, upon returning from a little vacation, I decided to train myself into top shape. Reasons for this are plenty enough, but those are cast aside for now.

Last tuesday I started with a 3,5 km jog, took about 20 minutes. About 50 push ups, and 3x3 pull ups. I originally also planned for a 4x20 sit ups, but I am always lazy with those and only did one set of 30.

The push ups are actually according to this program:

Six weeks all in all, but I am going to push it through in 3. Anyways, I was so bored that in the evening I did the same jog again.

On wendesday I woke up with my legs feeling like shit, and decided to postpone the jog until evening. I continued with the push ups, and did it pretty easily. Also did a 2x20 set of sit ups and a 3x3 of pull ups. In the evening I went for a jog, it was hard but I pushed it through.

Today my legs felt like a bit dead. I took a few running steps and decided not to run at all today. I continued with the push ups, completing week 1. It actually started to feel a little hard, but I still managed to finish the set with some extra. Tomorrow I'll take a rest of the push ups and then see if I can continue with week 2 of the program.

Sit ups are still not something I am comfortable with, I only did 2 sets of 20. Should up that t at least 3 sets of 20. I did the normal 3x3 pull ups, rather easily. I think I will increase that to 3 sets of 4 pull ups tomorrow...depends how I feel in the morning, as my arms might be a bit sore from all these push ups.

Oh well.